I listened to her song “Dirty Laundry” and I have had the dam song on repeat ever since, the song is so raw and honest and I can respect honesty, especially in an artist. Every woman from time to time has experienced some sort of jealousy to her friend, especially if you’re in a situation where everything in your life is going chaotic and their life just seems perfect. A little jealousy is natural and I could relate, I also know there are friends around me that are jealous of me because I might be living a life that they would want to live, well it seems like I am on the outside, the difference between some women’s jealousy and others is, some people want you to do well but not better than them. Envy can be dangerous Jealousy can turn a long time friend into your arch nemesis, they will do everything in their power to turn people against you and destroy your reputation. Fuck the bitch on the treadmill beside you will fuck you up if after one month you’re losing weight and she’s still fat, she’ll start spreading rumors that you had lipo and work done.
Toxic relationships especially when it has to do with your heart can turn you into a very bitter person, hating the entire world for no good reason. I’ve been there I was once caught in a poisonous relationship, fuck it where men are concerned I honestly think they were all poisonous. I always felt like I should be lucky, putting up with everything because I thought I was lucky to find someone to put up with me. Cutting myself short of the happiness I deserved because I thought, it doesn’t get any better than this. I look back at past relationships and I laugh at myself because I know I wasn’t happy in the relationship to begin with, but I have always had a very big ego and it gets the better of me. When you’re with someone who convinces you that something is wrong with you get away from that person they will poison you forever. Be with some one who celebrates your flaws and makes you feel like you’re perfect, because loving someone means over looking what you can’t fix.
Shout outs to Kelly for releasing this song, I’m sure she must have thought long and hard about it because some people are going to hear how jealous she was of Beyonce and how she used to get beat up. Then there are others like me who will hear a woman admit to going through a rough time , struggling with her career and her relationship, it could happen to anyone. I’m sure it has happened to many.
xoxoxo Dont be afraid to take some alone time and assess your situation, and remember envy is a weed you should never feed.