It will drive you crazy. It’s a set up, a dam trap and it was done to catch us, make us forget why we’re here and lose sight of where we’re going.
I wake up every morning and I read for 30 mins and read another 30 more at night. Through out the rest of the day I try to get my little activities done, I go to work, I blog, I make Youtube videos and I’ve been working on the same book for over a year. every now and again I buy the news paper and read every thing in it, I do that maybe once a month to catch up. I don’t watch television, I gave my TV to the Salvation Army 2 years ago.
I’m trying to keep my sanity, there are so many things that will upset me, make me question my whole entire existence. It’s my duty to do whatever it takes to maintain and keep my drive alive.
Case in point the highly publicized Zimmerman Trial, The jury found him not guilty. Do I feel like it should have been otherwise? of course I do, I have a 17-year-old cousin who likes to wear hoodies and walks home from school everyday. Sometimes late if he’s coming from football, he also live in the United States.
Should I be overly concerned about the whole ordeal, here’s the situation. I feel it for that family, and I pray for them and everyone who has lost some one to injustice, regardless of their race. America is not the world, They are one country and they are not perfect, sometimes the system works and sometimes it doesn’t. It could happen anywhere.
Jamaica’s own Justice system is so screwed up I can’t say anything bad about any other country. Have you ever called 911?, Have you ever had your house broken into and gone to police station, ever been robbed in broad day light while there were police everywhere? All of that has happened to me, including a brutal attack on my mom a couple of years ago. Her attacker stabbed her several times My mom lived, she’s fine, her attacker stole her phone and used it to make calls. When my mom got her SIM replacement back over $1000 worth of credit was gone, however because the phone was not post paid She didn’t get a bill and I couldn’t see who he called. For the phone company to give us a record of the calls from that number, even though it was my mom’s phone and if she were post paid they would have given her a bill. They said we had to get a letter from the police department where we reported it. I remember going to the police station maybe five times, telling them that the perpetrator had used her phone and we could track him, they weren’t interested. I begged them for the letter, they had me sit down and wait on a bench for someone to see me. They played dominoes and drank beer and completely ignored me.
Yea that’s my Justice system it doesn’t care about anyone, what about the school boy/girl who was shot in the taxi by the man in the X6? That case hasn’t even made it to court. That person lost their child and they didn’t even attempt to give her justice, they didn’t even pretend, didn’t even fake it.
I can’t allow all the stress of the world to damper me, I have to do what I have to do, or it will drive me crazy. Because seriously, what’s the real reason why we’re here?
Our entire existence seems like an utter waste of time, It’s like we’re here for someone’s amusement.
Know what’s going on, but don’t allow situations to suck you in and rob you of your joy, it’s all we have.
xoxoxo Lauren O Lauren